If Only

You are sleepless nights and crying 'til 3.
You are nausea, anxiety, confusion.
You are the hard shoulder on the M1.
You are misery and thoughts of self harm.
You are daydreams of opportunities missed;
Things that could have been.
You are the face of strangers in the street.
You are mental instability.
You are dreams of marital bliss.

You are my regrets.
You are my shortcomings.
You are my failure.
You are my -'If only'